100 Questions: Day 94

When has scarcity or lack-based thought prevented me from doing what I love? 

How many times have you uttered the words, “I don’t have the money to do that right now?” Maybe you’ve said, “When I get some free time, I’ll finally be able to ________.” I know for me, this is an ongoing conversation that I have with myself, but not as frequently.

Sometimes, it just takes a tiny shift in your thinking to truly change your outlook. For me, I wanted to get out and enjoy the city that I live in. But the narrative I always used was, “I don’t have a job. I can’t afford to go out.” So guess what happened? I started working, which of course produced an income. Then the narrative became, “I don’t have the time to go anywhere.” “I’m too tired and I have other things to do.” I stayed in this mind space for years; eventually spilling over into other aspects of my life, like my wellness and traveling. But underneath all of this “lack” laid an underlining issue that I couldn’t touch: I was afraid to go after what I loved…alone.

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So, I started to really ask myself is it that I don’t HAVE time, or do I not MAKE the time? If I wanted to go to a Happy Hour, then all I needed was 20 minutes. And let me tell you, it wasn’t as scary as I thought it would be. Then Happy Hour turned to dinner at restaurants I always wanted to try out. Soon, it was going to the dance studio and taking classes. Soon, I didn’t mind doing things by myself because I always seem to attract like-minded people wherever I went. The lack of money (or so I thought) opened my eyes to how I just view money in general. I always “talk broke”; there’s never enough money to do anything…and if you believe in manifestations, then my reality matched it. It took years for me to shift from a lack of money, to knowing I have the money to do everything I needed and wanted to do. I would tell myself, “I have the money to do what I love. My needs are met.” and what I needed was either marked down or on sale. I started getting raises at work, too!

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Thinking from a space of lack has a way of keeping you boxed in a prison of your own creation. It doesn’t feel like it because it feels comfortable and familiar. I know for some logical thinkers, “attitude of gratitude” thinkers grate their nerves; that it’s unrealistic. But there’s a saying we have that pretty much sums up scarcity and lack:

I’ll see it when I believe it. 

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