It has been a long time since I’ve posted anything on my blog post and to be honest, I haven’t been inspired. I had all of these ideas that I wanted to write, and I keep being told that “if you’re a writer, then you should be writing everyday.” but nothing moved me to sit in front of my computer (or even pull up the app on my phone) and jot any of this down. I even started to believe that I have Impostor Syndrome when it comes to my writing.
But it all comes down to me not being focused. In my writing and in my life. I am trying to figure out my next move while having family and friends tell me what that move should be. Being unemployed, I’m applying for jobs like crazy, but lately it’s been feeling like I am trying to fit into a world I no longer belong to. If only I could tell my bills this revelation. I feel a tug to do something more, something greater with myself and the spaces that I hold, but that answer eludes me. So I’ll bring it back to my blog. I feel like it’s suppose to be going in a different direction.
I have been blogging for over three years and this is the first time that I’ve thought of this as being my bread and my butter. That I could spin this into something I do full-time or at best, to write about the human experience. I started visualizing a logo and a tagline. But as soon as the vision comes, it quickly goes away and I feel like maybe writing is just a hobby of mines; and not my passion.
I’ll figure it out, eventually. But right now, I have to take more of a step back.